Year: 2004

  • Xenosaga

    Xenosaga > *. That is all.

  • Childhood’s Epilogue

    As a child, I remember, Christmas was a wondrous time full of happiness and joy. Even as a teenager, although it had lost some of its wonder, I still remember looking forward to it. Over time, though, our approach to Christmas was changing. I guess the first thing it lost for me was a religious significance, then maybe when we got a fake tree, then when we started decorating half-heartedly, when my parents started hating having to cook Christmas dinner (yet would never let me help), when snow was only something from memories… Gradually, I guess, Christmas lost its magic. Now it’s Christmas Eve and I’m not even vaguely excited. I had no advent calendar to finish today, and my room’s not decorated. Slowly but surely, I think I’m learning what it means to be an adult.

  • A Sense of Completeness

    Nothing ever changes, huh? For a while I’m back with everyone in Bournemouth. Today was perhaps more of a reminder than a reunion – the day went just like they always used to, and left a warm feeling behind in our hearts. Walking home at the end of the night, I felt warm despite the cold, sober despite the alcohol, surrounded by friends although alone, and if I closed my eyes I could almost feel the world shining and beautiful around me. As if, with every step, I was coming closer to the world around me. As if I was complete.

  • Leaving a World Behind

    So ended another term. It felt like an awful lot happened in these past few months, and when I think about it the time was full of memories being made. Happy ones and sad ones too, but in a way the emotion doesn’t matter. It’s memories that make these days everlasting – the best days of our lives.

    Let’s all make more memories together next term! Merry Christmas everybody!

  • A Last Meal

    Tonight, I ate my last proper meal here for a while – and also the largest I’ve eaten in over a week. Man, am I stuffed!

    Earlier on today I tried to venture into Portswood to get Christmas stuff, but for some reason all the card and wrapping paper shops seem to have decided to close. I know it’s Sunday, but come on! What’s wrong with opening from 11 ‘til 5 at least? So, it looks like I’ll be doing emergency shopping tomorrow…

  • Of Rainfall and Farewells

    As seems to be traditional, days of leaving are greeted by stormy weather. Today, we said goodby to Mark until the new year as rain fell in seemingly-solid sheets around the house. Inside there might have been presents and mince pies (by the way, making them is hard without a rolling pin or pastry-cutter =p) but it still doesn’t feel like Christmas. Perhaps tomorrow, when I’m forced to venture into the pre-Christmas free-for-all mob that is Southampton city centre in December, it might begin to sink in…

  • Passing of Conclusion

    So it seems that, almost without a thought, term ended… Not with a bang, or a pop, or even with a party. It faded, just like I thought it probably would. I guess that now it’s time to fade out for a while.

    Bournemouth people:

  • Imminence

    Well, here we are, four hours from the end of this term’s Uni work. And, even now, it doesn’t feel special yet…

    Not a lot’s happened in real life since yesterday, but it feels very definitely otherwise – an awful lot happened in yesterday’s World of Darkness game. Physically and mentally – not only was Malachai within a few seconds of death, but the whole Shelley thing has suddenly speeded up an awful lot. I guess that’s just the way it is, but it’s still a little fast from Malachai’s point of view. I guess, when I think about it, I do have enough experience to know how he would feel. (Oh, and he owes Shelley his life now, which will make things even more odd…)

  • Acceleration of Conclusion

    Well, conveniently the problem of whether or not to go to lectures today was solved for me – I slept through all of them. Even the one at 2pm. So, all that’s left of this term now is roleplaying tonight, Photonics on friday afternoon, friday night’s party, and three days of fading away…

  • Approach of Conclusion

    Well… for better or worse, that’s all my deadlines for this term out of the way. And wow, that feels good… This afternoon – and especially this evening, at the ninja-costumed pub crawl (pictures soon) – I can really have fun!

    Not that I’m completely finished yet, though – I still have three lectures tomorrow that I might or might not go to, and the Photonics labs on Friday. But still, it feels like term’s ending. It’s almost – almost – beginning to feel like Christmas…