Blog Archive — Page 78

Memories of Pancakes

Written on Tuesday 24 Feb 2004

I’ve just been making them in the kitchen for my flatmates, we might be making them at Exalted tonight (but last I heard, we weren’t)…

It can’t help but remind me of a year ago, and all the pancakes we made then at Nothe Parade… Now that was pancake gluttony! ^_^

An odd day so far...

Written on Monday 23 Feb 2004

I woke up after having a fairly odd dream, but was wide awake from the moment I got up. Easily made it to the lecture on time. Then, I started to get irritated by everything, I don’t know why. Itchy seats, people whispering, the lecturer taking about five minutes expalining what convection was when we’ve blatantly know what it was for at least five years… that kinda’ thing.

But on the way home, I kind of changed… I spent the journey listening to calm songs and J-Pop rather than the metal and techno that usually gets played, and the sunshine was really nice… Now I think I realise… once the summer comes again, everything will be okay, and happy again… I think. And for now, I have the urge to dance. Just… dance, until I physically can’t anymore. I don’t know why…

Falling Apart...

Written on Sunday 22 Feb 2004

From some recent LJ posts (Phi’s and Frieza’s especially), plus the stuff that’s been going on on the DDRFUK forums and IRC channel, I’m kinda’ worried… There seems to be a lot of bad stuff going on that I’m only scraping the surface of.

I’m not sure which is more selfish, not wanting to burden myself with the knowledge of what’s going on, or wanting people to tell me about everything. But… even though I’ve only seen most of these people once or twice, or maybe even never, they still feel like friends to me, so… I want to know what’s going on…

Devoid of Purpose

Written on Sunday 22 Feb 2004

Overcast day
Evening light fading away

Twilight

Not sure why, I just felt like doing a fake-Haiku really. I might do one for each entry… or… well, I dunno. Anyway… today’s been another day of nothingness. Woke up, used the internet, showeverd and had lunch, used the internet, am about to go and have dinner. Afterwards, I shall probably use the internet, and go to bed. It seems like there’s nothing else to do, and perhaps there isn’t. It’s… lonely. People go on- and off-line all the time, going about their lives… but I’m always here. Watching people come and go… forever…

Is that all there is…? Sitting here, watching the light fade away…?

Best thing evar.

Written on Saturday 21 Feb 2004

I wish I lived in Japan, was female, and weighed less than 50kg…

Edit: Note to people who are worried by this - I don’t really! ^_^;; Actually read the linked page before questioning my sanity here…

Babelfished link: Open Sky Project

For those who have trouble translating the Engrish… They’re building a jet-powered glider exactly like Nausicaa’s one in the anime and manga of that name.

Wasting Days

Written on Friday 20 Feb 2004

I’m really tired, and I have been all day… there’s been nothing to do that I really want to do… The only bit of useful work I did all day was do some graphics for Adam’s latest stepfile, Love’s Rebirth by Third Project. It’s been an interesting job trying to find out where this song originally comes from, and I haven’t had a lot of success. The only references to it I can find on the ‘net are either about Rogue’s TM4 entry or a BMS file for it. I’d assumed from the BMS that it was originally from some flavour of Beatmania, but Fuse didn’t seem to think so, so… I dunno ^_^

Also, I’m definitely turning into a loner, I think. I’ve stayed in my room virtually all day, only seen one of my flatmates once today, and I’m glad that no-one’s asked me if I wat to go out tonight…

Exam Results

Written on Thursday 19 Feb 2004

<table border=1 bordercolor=#000000 cellpadding=10><tr><td>School of Physics and Astronomy - Semester 1 Examination Results - February 2004

RENTON I                    year: 1 programme: PHwMA                     tutor: dar

Average Mark: 72.0

Credit points passed: 60

Well Done</td></tr></table>

Woohoo! ^_^

And in other news, I’m starting to spread the word about AnimeSoc… About six people are definitely interested so far, and I’ve been putting up a few posters today to get people’s attention… Hopefully we should get our 25 members soon!

Triumph and Disaster of the Laundry Crusade

Written on Wednesday 18 Feb 2004

So, I try to cheat the system. It’s virtually impossible to do the laundry here without a two hour wait, even at times when most people have lectures. So, my solution? Go at a time when people not only don’t tend to go, but when others would think it’s a ludicrous time to do laundry. So, at 8:30 this morning, I go and do my laundry. Success! The laundry room’s empty, I manage to wash and dry in under an hour.

And then the problem. It seems that at that time of the morning… they don’t have the gas for the dryers turned on. Yay for soaking wet washing, and for having three impromptu washing lines made of plaited string tying together every suitable handle in my room. ARSE.

Diary of a Day of Troubles ~My Heartache~

Written on Monday 16 Feb 2004

Why… Why won’t anything good happen today…? … Here goes, today in a nutshell.

9:30am

Wake up, shower, breakfast, go to 11am lecture, same as every Monday.

12:50pm

Meet James in the Garden Court. He’s been to the Estate Agents’ this morning, got some draft tenancy agreements and a form for me to sign, and has payed both our £110 agency fees.

2:30pm

Form completed, I head off to the Estate Agents. On the way I’m on the phone to my mum, and I ask if I can have the £110 soon to pay James back. She agrees, and reminds me to ask the Agents how much rent we have to pay over the summer months, and if there’s a problem with my parents setting up a Direct Debit for the account rather than me. And, like a trickle before the dam bursts, I’m told that James can’t stay round at the DDRFUK Bournemouth meet in April.

3:00pm

Just come out of the Estate Agents’. We have to pay full rent all summer, even though we won’t be living there for three months, which overall adds up to about £800 each in wasted money. Apparently, it’s non-negotiable. Slightly annoyed by this, but it seems that’s commonplace here, so what the hell, I just go with it.

3:30pm

Back at home again, I report the news first to James, who’s okay with it, then my mum, who isn’t so convinced. To be fair it’s a lot of their money that’s being wasted here, but I think every rented place in town rips students off to the same extent. She’s also concerned by the fact that we’re jointly liable for the rent, so if one of us pulls out the other will be left to pay the full rent for at least two months, unless they can find another tenant quickly. By this time, the facts that I should really be going to do my laundry and should start doing some work soon are preying heavily on my mind. I wait for my mum to confer with dad and phone me back before I think about going to do the laundry.

4:10pm

Spoken to James over MSN about what my parents said, and he and his parents seem fine about it. I’m also reminded that our £110 (each) agency fee is only refundable provided we pull out before 5pm tomorrow (Tuesday). We both have full days on Tuesday, so it has to be decided by lunchtime at the latest. He leaves for a Union Council meeting.

4:30pm

Back on the phone again. My parents seem

deeply unhappy about the issue of looking after the property in the summer months, for example picking up bills and doing the gardening. I’m not sure if gardening is included in our responsibilities, because we haven’t been given a real tenancy agreement to sign yet, only a specimen. We get into a long discussion about the problems here, and my parents suggest that it might be a better idea to look for a place to rent in September to avoid the summer problem (possible for me because my parents live within commuting distance, so if I fail to find a place it’s not the end of the world). Unfortunately that kinda’ screws up James, since he’s got no-one else to rent with. By now, I’ve given up all idea of doing my laundry today. I’m also beginning to realise that however the decision goes in the end, I won’t be happy.

5:30pm

By now I’m really hungry, but I have a ton of washing up to get through before I can start cooking. I’m really starting to feel depressed now.

6:30pm

I finally get to eat dinner. It’s quite nice, but doesn’t cheer me up.

7:00pm

I get to my room, and find my parents phoned and left a message. I call back. Commuting from home on a permanent basis or trying to get accommodation in halls next year are discussed, I’m not keen on either. The problems of renting over the summer are d

iscussed again, but the conversation really can’t go much further without James being involved, and MSN still shows him as away.

7:30pm

I call James, and he is at home. I discuss what my parents have said with him. He suggests that the landlord must have something in place to deal with the fact that students aren’t there in the summer to sort out bills. Also, renting starting in September doesn’t reduce the term of the contract, it just means you have to pay over the next summer instead.

8:00pm

On the phone to my parents again, and it’s starting to sound like they don’t want me to rent at all, but want me to commute or go back into halls. I’m frequently reminded of how much more expensive living in a house or flat is, but personally I think I’m okay with spending more so that I can enjoy my time at Uni… My parents need to go away and discuss things, mum says she’ll phone me back later.

8:45pm

And with a clanging sound that shook the horizons, the doors closed, and were barred. My mum calls… I found out that she’s under threat of redundancy and so my parents can’t actually guarantee they can support me if I live away from home next year. I also discover that my last possibility, my as-yet unclaimed student loan, won’t provide nearly enough for me to be able to afford to rent next year.

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9:10pm</i>

I speak to James on the phone, and tell him the news, apologising as much as I can. We’re going to the Estate Agents’ at lunchtime tomorrow to get his £220 back.

9:20pm

And so, it’s over. No more flat, just the guilt of leaving James out on his own, and the guilt that I already cost my parents too much money… And the sadness inside, of feeling the strands of my life changing their course into the future…

All hope of doing laundry or problem sheets tonight is gone, I really don’t feel like doing anything now. I still have three problem sheets to do in the… about four hours… of time I have left before Thursday morning’s tutorial. I’m burnt out, and, even though I know it’s no sensible way to get over stress and depression, but… I think I’m going to go and buy some cans of Strongbow and a big block of chocolate…

Shattered dreams,

Broken shards of mirror.

Endless.</i>

~ Everything that has a beginning, has an end. ~

Wasted Time

Written on Sunday 15 Feb 2004

So… another weekend wasted. I should have done more work, I shouldn’t have spent the whole of this afternoon in the pub, and I certainly shouldn’t have spent as much money as I have done. Somehow, before Thursday morning, I have to do 11 hours of lectures, go shopping, do my laundry, visit the estate agents’, play Exalted, play Mage, and do three problem sheets, two of which actually require re-learning the material since I wasn’t awake enough in lectures to actually pay attention. This week is gonna suck.