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My work is fun, I guess… and I suppose watching TV and playing games at home are fun too. At least, that’s what I should think. Yet, it’s beginning to bore me after just a couple of weeks. Every day is a routine, and every day will be, stretching forwards ahead of me across the summer.
The clouds which cloak this island mirror the clouds in my heart, separating me from my friends in other places…
Today, I’m on an adventure. Walking aimlessly between the sunny sky and the verdant land, marvelling at the beauty of the world… Truly, there’s no better feeling than this… Although I’m alone, I’m still happy and peaceful… This is the kind of place I always long to be, the kind of emotion I always yearn to feel.
Oddly, this feels almost like home - but whichever material location I choose to call my home these days is devoid of places and feelings like these. No, the home this reminds me of is the home of a person I’m not, who lives in a place I can never go and has a past I could never have had.
But when I come to places like these, I can start to believe that my dreams and my reality aren’t so different after all…
It’s been one of the nicest days I remember, today. Not a cloud in the sky, and the sun shining down strongly… Shame it won’t last even until tomorrow, apparently.
Anyway, today’s been a really good day at work, despite the fact I don’t actually have a computer set up there yet! ^_^; I’m involved with a really exciting new project, which will be tough but hopefully rewarding. In other news, on the way back home today I went and bought a magazine - for £6. Next time I think I’ll just buy a novel for the same amount of money, it’ll last ten times longer…
Tsuki’s Tip of the Day: How to get a free Massage.
Stand on the top of an open-top bus as it goes along the top of Portalnd into a Force 6 headwind. Glasses reccommended if you want to be able to have your eyes open! ^_^;
So there it is, the ending of Stellvia - and it was everything I hoped for and more. I just can’t get over the flood of emotions that come from finally witnessing the awesome end of something that dominated my heart and mind as totally as Stellvia did…
And of course, with every ending there comes a new beginning. In a little over 10 hours’ time, I start work again. It’s going to feel a little odd, I think… I hope I can live up to everyone’s expectations of me. I want to get back into helping everyone on the project right away!
Three months, huh…? It feels longer - much longer. It’s getting lonely here already…
I suppose it’s a sign that I was enjoying myself, when I didn’t think to check what time it was until I noticed it was already sunrise… (And yet, I still feel wide awake now even though I didn’t sleep last night…)
I wonder why it is that I feel really strongly that I want to stay in Southampton, to be there as long as possible… Even though I hardly know most of the people I’ve met there, everyone’s so nice… and I want to become friends with them all…
I can’t help but feel as if I’m being left behind for the next three months. But I guess that’s a selfish thought that I shouldn’t have…
I wonder if it’s a bad thing that I get so emotional about stories… Adding to my own rather emotional feelings recently, I’ve just finished watching Da Capo and reading the latest Discworld Novel, A Hat Full of Sky. Also, I’m getting very near the end of watching Uchuu no Stellvia and playing Grandia II. So, yeah… the ending of four stories at once is making me feel really odd at the moment.
However, new things are beginning, too. On Saturday I’m off to Southampton for a housewarming party at a house I won’t actually be moving into for another three months, but it’ll be great fun anyway! And the day after, I move down to Portland, ready to start my Summer job on Monday. It’s scarily close though… ^_^;
Tomorrow (hopefully, at least - I still need to phone Adam and ask if I’m actually invited…) I get to have dance game, curry and drinks fun with Adam, Ant, Andy and Fuse, which will be awesome!
Logic3 Metal Dance Mat.
Retail price: £100.
Bought for: £40.
(Also, passed my first 7-foot song today. Now, hopefully, I won’t have to hear Afronova again for a while =p)
Well, it’s been a week and a half since I left Southampton, and things are going… oddly. I’ve spent a lot of time at Adam’s (watching the England games and playing IIDX) and Dom’s (playing FFX-2 and Grandia 2, plus chatting about random stuff). Also visited Andy’s house once for more IIDX fun, which was awesome.
Last night was Dom’s birthday, so him, Adam and I went to Wetherspoons in the evening. After a couple of pints of Old Rosie (<3 cider) though, I felt extremely drunk… my vision was kind of messing up, which felt really bad. I guess I’m even more weak than I used to be. Hopefully I managed not to spoil the evening for the others. Some of their conversations managed, predictably, to break me ;;_;; I wonder, though… if it’s a bad thing that I react that way. Acting like that is definitely a part of me, but sometimes I can’t help feeling that it’s a bad thing. But if I didn’t have that, what would there be of me?
I feel, sometimes, as if there’s a way I can go forwards and a way I can go back, but no way of staying with everything as it is now.
In other news, Stellvia is an awesome anime series. But I’m not sure if it’s just because of my own emotions at the moment that I really love it. I’m guessing Stellvia’s love story isn’t anything special, but it seems to be meaning an awful lot to me.
I think I may be coming to understand what love might feel like (guess I’m kinda’ late, huh? Only starting to realise things like that at 19 years old…). I’m not, of course, properly falling in love with someone - but I get the feeling that it’s now actually possible for me to do so, if it wasn’t before…
Heh, I guess my rambling doesn’t make much sense. But then, neither does the inside of my head nor the inside of my heart at the moment…
So, that’s it. No more Gateley Hall, no more Flat 4.
And so, it’s Summer again. Hardly seems like any time at all since last time around, does it? And yet, a lot of things have happened this year, and a lot has changed.
Until late September to early October sometime, I’ll be effectively without internet access. MSN will be pretty much no-go for me, and I’ll only be able to be on IRC when I visit other peoples’ houses. E-mails I should be able to check from work once or twice a day, though. LiveJournal updates will probably come in weekly blocks, since I’m not sure my boss would take kindly to me sitting at the internet machine blogging away every day.
So, until I see you all again…
Have a great summer!!
So, I went to bed about 1.30am - not unusual. Unfortunately I forgot to set an away message on MSN, so at 2.30am I get worken up by Ike’s incessant spam. After that, I manage to get to sleep until 5.30am, whereupon people start talking in the corridor outside my room, and the door do Jo’s room starts slamming once every minute or so.
That’s still continuing, albeit less frequently now. But now it’s light outside, and the chances of me being able to get any sleep at all from now on are zero. So I guess today is official caffeine day for me!